This is a prayer for one of the most feared things: Wrath.
"Then i looked and saw that the Temple in Heaven, God's Tabernacle, was thrown wide open. The seven angels who were holding the seven plagues came out of the Temple. They were clothed in spotless white lenin with gold sashes across their chests. Then one of the four living beings handed each of the seven angels a gold bowl filled with the wrath of God, who lives forever and ever. The Temple was filled with smoke from God's glory and power. No one could enter the Temple until the seven angels had completed pouring out the seven plagues." Revelation 15:5-8
This prayer is said through a mind that is training itself to fear You. I am learning to cling to anything and everything that will keep my body from sin! In this case, the motive is WRATH..God Almighty's WRATH. And this prayer was spoken humbly and most seriously at the feet of it's keeper...face down on the feet of my Savior.
All powerful God-
I am unaccustomed to the vivid descriptions of your anger in judgment. It discusts me to think of human body being crushed like grapes in a winepress. (as stated in Rev. 14:19). But i know this is the picture you are painting for my mind...a morbid, Truthful fate of those who choose to ignore Your Truth! When i ask for your wrath Lord, i ask for understanding. I ask for a comprehension! Scare me straight! I'm tired of focusing on the gentleness of your character- and im ready to face the idea of your horrific power! I am called to fear you, yet i fear you on a level of blindness. I am called to need your mercy, yet i am unwilling to face the necessity of Your Judgement!
Like seven mighty angels splashing contents from bowls of wrath onto the nations, spill Your grace onto my exposed shoulders. I need grace for my mind to understand your Wrath. I need this God, because i know that i will never see how desperate i am for your mercy if i do not face the immensity of Your Judgment! I will not search out your grace as if i have been without food or drink in days- unless i can truly and honestly take to heart your crushing wrath! Show us your wrath and throw open your Temple in Heaven! May your power and glory billow out in clouds of smoke around me. Send forth your mighty messangers clothed in white linen. Manifest this in my heart. Engrave it deep in my brain to where I understand its importance. May i be frantic in my persuit for you because i know the consequence! Not the eternal torcher of an enemy, or the suffication from darkness...but the hopeless reality of a life separated from the most glorious thing to ever be. Soverign Lord Jesus.
I rejoice in your Justice God! And as i witness your great wrath take place in my own life- keep your feet close for landing tears. Stay in sight, for my hopeful eyes are rising to You daily. Lend your ear to my cry, for even as my bones weaken, my dying breath will be a song of praise to You. Open your hands for my ever-hungering soul- for if i am not fed by You- the hands of the world will gladly and quickly feed me lies. Lift me when i fall beneath the weight of my load. Place Your deeds readily on my tongue, for i will proclaim Your greatness, for it is beyond discovery! Your mercy reaches each generation. You are majestic, glorious, splendor. May this praise song always lift me from an earthly perspective to a heavenly one. Prepare my heart to recieve your Love and power. You're so endless. So perfectly whole. Do refreshingly pure. So eternal. You beautify all that adores you. You're lasting, so willing, so stable, so complete.
So once again, i ask for your understanding of Wrath. May it at least strengthen the glue to which my heart seals The Truth on. This is the prayer of my heart. Thank you for not reading these words as intently as reading the words my heart expresses, for the translation, i know, gets distorted somewhere between my heart and mind translating to english and out of my mouth and fingers. Your grace is enough isn't it! In Jesus' precious Name, so be it.